If I'm walking around our apartment or my parent's home at night, you can bet I will flip on all the lights so I don't have to run around like an idiot. When it's time to head off to bed, I calculate the quickest way from the light switch until I'm in the light again, flip the switch, then run like hell to get out of the dark. The whole way, I am absolutely certain something is right because me. I hate walking outside at night if I'm by myself. I will avoid it at all costs! I am certain that no matter where I'm at, the second the lights go off someone is going to pop out of the dark when I turn around.
My other fear?
This has always been something I was afraid of and part of the reason I have a fear of the dark, even since I was little. I'm not sure what started this but I think the fear has gotten more intense, the older I get. I'm sure all the movies I've watched where some young girl gets kidnapped haven't helped. Taken? It's got me scared out of my mind. I usually try to keep the door locked while I'm home but I'm still paranoid that something might happen. If I hear any noise at night outside our apartment or when I'm home at my parents' house I will go into instant panic mode. My parents live out in the country so hearing noises outside is pretty common. I just assume that someone must be there to take me. Completely logical, right? Then every noise I hear after that becomes that much more intense. I start imagining where I'm going to hide if I do hear someone in the house. Every. Time. Then I get myself so worked up that I spend half the night trying to calm down.
|What I look like when I hear noises.. Image via|
And now I'm sitting here wondering how anyone sticks around to read my blog. You poor people must think I'm bat shit crazy. But hey, now you know that if you ever try to fake kidnap me, I will never forgive you!
Back to studying for my finals! Happy Tuesday friends, after tomorrow at 12 pm I can officially celebrate the start of my Summer!