Jan 9, 2018

Self-Portraits of Mamahood: 2017

Well, well, well, I figured it was about time to dust off the cobwebs and get back to it. 2017 turned out to be crazier than I ever could have imagined. Lots of leaning on our faith and jumping in hoping for the best!

I set out to capture more photos of my family that included myself this past year. It was a fun challenge and it helped me learn a lot about the way I wanted to be seen in our family photos. Though some big changes over the year threw me off a bit, I still managed to get 45 out of 52 pictures. I decided to take the challenge again this year! But for now, I wanted to share a few of my favorites from the past year.

Aug 23, 2017

34 Week Bumpdate

How far along? 34 weeks 5 days
Total weight gain: 24 pounds
Maternity clothes?  Pretty much all I can wear at this point, my belly is so round and so low that nothing else expands far enough.
Sleep: As fine as it can be when you can't physically roll over without lots of sound effects. Pregnancy pillow is a God-send right now.
Best moment this week:  Closing on our house and getting all of our stuff moved in finally! Such a relief after two months of chaos with the move. Also, buying newborn diapers and remembering just how teeny tiny our sweet little Goose is going to be! We got to go on a date for the first time in forever which was just what we needed!
Worst Moment this week: All the chaos and emotions that come along with moving and unpacking. Plus, I wasn't able to really help with any of the painting/fixing up the house or moving stuff which made me feel helpless and left out. 
Miss Anything? Not being stared at in public. No comments but people literally turning around in their seats to look at me, like I wouldn't notice that.
Cravings: Still honey nut cheerios, I swear I could eat a whole box in a day if I wasn't paying attention.
Symptoms: Swelling like WHOA in my feet. Midwife said I need to double my water intake to help with the swelling in all this heat. I struggle to get 60oz down in a day, 120 seems impossible! Braxton hicks quite a bit now too but that probably stems from being overheated and overworking myself.
Looking forward to: Settling in and having everything unpacked!

32 Week Bumpdate

How far along? 32 weeks 6 days
Total weight gain: 21.5 pounds
Maternity clothes? All day, every day. I can still wear some of my regular clothes but what's the point now?
Sleep: Total crap. Insomnia keeping me up anyway on top of Mav not sleeping very well means not much sleep these days.   
Best moment this week:  Lots of naps!
Worst Moment this week: Having a pretty scary moment while driving back from NEIA and I hit severe weather with Mav in the car. Having to pull over at a gas station (that you weren't sure you'd even make it to) to take shelter because the tornado sirens were going off. Thankfully the rest of the drive was uneventful!
Miss Anything? Good sleep and my child sleeping all night. Living in our own space.
Cravings: Cookies and fresh fruit!   
Symptoms: Insomnia seems to be the only thing at this point!
Looking forward to: Closing on our house soon!

30 Week Bumpdate

How far along? 30 weeks 6 days
Total weight gain: 16+ pounds, not sure since I'm in between midwife offices and appointments right now.
Maternity clothes? So comfy! I wish I had more bottoms that I loved but its been so dang hot that I don't have many options.
Sleep: Better than I thought it would be with the move. The house we're staying in is really cool in our room and the bed is comfy so we've all slept pretty great this week.
Best moment this week:  Getting all moved out of our apartment and taking the first step in this big adventure!
Worst Moment this week: Dealing with moving out and all the emotions that came with it. Though we won't miss living in Boone, we will miss the memories we made in that place. It was harder than I expected to leave the place we brought our first baby home.
Miss Anything? The calm of life before all these big changes came into play.
Cravings: Ice and anything cold to drink that I can stomach!        
Symptoms:  Exhaustion but that's probably more moving related than baby related.
Looking forward to: Feeling at home here in Minnesota! Feeling like I know where I'm going or how to find things without GPSing every place I need to go to. Meeting the new midwives and getting my care set up at the birth center.

Aug 22, 2017

29 Week Bumpdate

This is the first bump update that I missed since I was technically supposed to do it at 28 weeks. Oops! Blame it on being just a smidge preoccupied.

How far along? 29 weeks 
Total weight gain: 16 pounds
Maternity clothes?  Hallelujah for maternity clothes! Though a lot of my tank tops are non-maternity too, I've just been sizing up.
Sleep: Not horrible when I get sleep in between packing but not great either since we've been sleeping on an air mattress or the futon.  Our neighbors are super loud out in the hallway so we hear a lot more of that now that we aren't staying in our bedroom anymore.
Best moment this week:  90% of our stuff moved out of the apartment with the help of family!
Worst Moment this week: Spending all of our time packing and cleaning. Moving is stressful so emotions were definitely high on more than one occasion. 
Miss Anything? Doing things unrelated to moving. Cooler weather!
Cravings: Nothing much at this point, moving has me too stressed out.       
Symptoms:  Exhaustion and swelling.
Looking forward to: Being in Minnesota finally and moving on with this new part of our lives!

Jun 20, 2017

The Big Move

The last several months have consisted of lots of uncertainty, stress, and big decision making. We've tried to keep as much of it as possible to ourselves because we wanted to make the best decision for our family based on our own opinions, not what everyone else thought we should do.

Right after Easter, M interviewed for a job up in the twin cities. There were two routes he could go in this particular company. After some confusion and several weeks had passed, it looked like we were going to be staying around the Ames/Des Moines area and he would continue looking for a new job. The end of our lease was coming up quickly (it's done at the end of June) so we needed to make a game plan and stick with it. Then he discussed the other route he could go with this same company and we realized it was actually going to be a much better option for our family. This new route involved M taking a few classes to become certified for this new position, then having a follow-up interview. Oh, and did I mention he had to do all of this before he left for his annual training on June 1st?!

So he took the first of two classes and had his follow-up interview which went very well! They offered him the position, which he accepted, then almost immediately had to leave for two weeks of AT. That left me packing up and deep cleaning our apartment, traveling back and forth to look for housing 3 hours away in the Twin Cities, taking care of our toddler, and trying to take care of myself. With midwife appointments and ultrasounds and blood tests thrown in the mix. To say the last few weeks have been hectic is a giant understatement! Now that the decision to move had been made official, we had to decide whether buying a house was an option for us or if we would have to rent for a year before we could make it happen.

Lots of long distance house hunting (which is hard enough in itself but then to have your husband in a different location too made it twice as hard) with the help of family and an awesome realtor led us to putting in an offer on a house. We prayed that if this was meant to be our house then it would happen and if not, that it would fall through immediately. Well, after some shady business happened, we were outbid on that house. It wasn't meant to be! I drove back to our apartment to continue packing while we did some more long distance house hunting. We were still back and forth on whether we should rent throughout this whole process. Later that week we found another house that needed some minor updates but mostly just cosmetic stuff to make it more our style. We put in an offer on this house and early the next morning we found out that they accepted our offer!! All of this chaos happened while M was still gone for AT. He came home Wednesday night and by Friday we were headed up to see our home for the very first time! We had the inspection done while we were there Friday. We tried to make some decisions on a few things that needed to be done before we moved in too.

So, pending everything goes smoothly over the next month, we will be moved into our new house, M will be starting his new job, and we will be getting settled in just in time to welcome our second little monkey to the family! We would so appreciate all prayers and positive thoughts you would send our way because the next few months still have quite a bit of uncertainty as we wait for things to be finalized. We are ready to be settled down in our new home state of Minnesota!

Relaxing during the house hunt.
So much time on the road is exhausting!

We drove an extra hour out of the cities before we headed home to see M during his AT. This isn't something we'd normally get to do but I'm so happy it worked out for us to see him for just a little bit!

Boxes are starting to take over.

Boxes cost how much?!

Before entering our house for the first time ever! Praying for no surprises and smooth sailing until closing!

Jun 10, 2017

26 Week Bumpdate

How far along?
  26 weeks + 6 days

Total weight gain: 13lbs

Maternity clothes? Hells yes. My stockpile is slowly growing as I find myself not fitting into my regular clothes or not wanting to stretch them out. Also, how did I live without maternity pants last time? As my little man grows and continues to hang out super low, I'm not sure how I'd even be able to wear shorts or pants if they didn't have the belly panel because even with my bella band my normal pants and shorts cut off a good portion of my belly. The positive to buying maternity clothes is that we've been gifted a lot of high quality maternity clothes so I will be hanging onto them for at least the next pregnancy or longer!

Sleep:  Oh hey insomnia, you're an unwelcome guest. I'm positive my crappy sleep lately is directly correlated with the amount of traveling we've done and stress we've been under lately. Either it takes my brain forever to calm down and fall asleep or I wake up sometime after 2am and it takes me an hour or more to fall back to sleep. Hoping some yoga at night and lavender/cedarwood oil will help me!       

Best moment this week: Getting to see M after a week (even if it was only for a little bit) and actually getting to do some house hunting in person instead of just online!

Worst Moment this week: All. the. traveling. and not getting the house we put an offer on because of a really crappy reason. Apparently it wasn't meant to be but house hunting from long distance is really hard!

Miss Anything? Lots of things but most can't be talked about on the internet right now. Mostly I just miss the feeling of not being stressed, though this current stress is for a good reason.

Cravings: Pasta! Holy moly, I've been wanting pasta pretty much every day this week. I've been trying to hold off the last few days though since my glucose test was today and pasta/bread can make my blood sugar spike. Also, iced coffee!

Symptoms:  Insomnia and Braxton hicks like crazy. Stress related so I've been trying to drink more water and relax at night to help! Also, crying a lot but that's also stress related haha.

Looking forward to: Getting a chance to clean and pack on Saturday without wrangling a toddler thanks to my brother and sister-in-law! Also, waiting for the next week to be over with!